Are you Alive?You spin on a pedestal,Your expression never changing,The lights flicker around you,Are you alive?You try to move,But your body doesn’t allow it,So you stand there,Forever spinning,A TV plays in front of you,But you only catch glimpses of what it plays,You see their smile,Their happiness,You once held that in your hands,But you threw it all away,Down the drain it went,With what little humanity you had left,You try to move,But your body doesn’t allow it,So you stand there,Forever spinning,Their voices call out to you,They want you to return,All you have to do is move,All you have to do is stop,The room begins to flood,The smell of alcohol filling the room,Is this the life you chose?The pedestal doesn’t stop,Soon your lungs fill with the toxic liquid,You try to breath,But your body is frozen,Are you still alive?Their voices call out to you,Like a haze,You hear their words,But what will you chose?Mommy,Daddy,Can you hear me?You spin
Let's Go HomeThere she sits,Alone and afraid,She clutches her best friend close,It’s soft fur giving her comfort,But her teddy bear won’t bring her a future,The walls around her dance,Shadows of a life that could have been,Dreams that are too far to reach,But her heart keeps on beating,Her princess dress is worn and tattered,The color has faded,What once was pink is now gray,Her shoes have holes,But she still moves forward,The walls around her dance,Music plays in a far off world,She stands up and moves forward,Is this dream too far to reach?She can see the way out,Her little hands try to turn the door knob,But it’s locked and she has no key,There she falls,And stares at the light underneath,The walls around her dance,Shadows of a life that could have been,Dreams that are too far to reach,But her heart keeps beating,Tears cover her face,Can they wash away the pain?She stands and pounds on the door,Please someone, she whispers,I just want to be loved,
Dear Little SisterI can remember the day you were born,She might not make it,They told my child self,But I knew what they said couldn't be right,I’d been waiting so long to see you,So wait some more I did,And like a miracle,I heard your cries,It was a sound that I can never forget,Over the years I watched you grow,I held you when you cried,Witnessed your smiling face,Shared laughs and stories,But soon I fear we won’t have that,We’re all grown up now,Our worlds separated by different fates,But even though we grow older,And distance is coming between us,You’re still my baby sister,I’ll cherish the time we spent together,And never forget that smile on your face,Just promise me that you’ll always be my baby sister,I want to see that same smile,When you’re standing there in a beautiful white dress,When you hold that baby for the first time,But just remember,You’ll always be my baby sister,I love you dearly,Happy Birthday.
Smile For MeI shoulder the pain for both of us,I hold you up high while I crumble,All I want is for you to smile,I want to hear your laugh again,But it’s faded so far away,The beds become so cold,I dream about us together,And the warmth we shared,Your smile is what keeps me going,So please show it to me before I fall apart,Embrace me with your warm arms,And pull me close against you,Show me that we can keep going,You’re the light to this darkness,As long as you’re here, I can keep going,We’ve fallen apart,More than a handful of times,But you always pull me close,You’re the reason I keep going,The reason why I smile every morning,Without you,I’d surely fall apart,You’ve become my sunlight,Embrace me with your warm arms,And pull me close against you,Show me that we can keep going,I’ll smile for you,So we can keep pushing forward,Through this horrible world together.
Isn't It Pointless?I’ve wanted to be somebody for so long now. I’ve wanted to be a part of something and feel needed. But here I stand in my life, with nothing to show for how far I’ve come. I’ve worked so hard to accomplish so many things in my life. I went through the grueling years or high school to get my Diploma, and when I held it in my hands, it felt like pure gold, it made me so happy.Now I have nothing else to move on for. My job takes all the time I have and for what? I scan and bag other peoples shit and watch them spend $500 on groceries that I knew I’ll never be able to afford. I live day to day, paycheck to paycheck. And now that I’m working, the state even cut my food benefits, which I desperately need.But I smile and brush it off, because I’m surviving. I may be young and new to working, but I don’t deserve to be treated like a nobody. I’m a person, a human being. Your words hurt. Even if you think I can’t hear them, why do you
The Rain - Chapter TwoI woke up with a scream in my chest that I managed to swallow down. I dreamt of my home and the bruises and scars that I’d gotten over the years. When I woke, it was early in the morning, but voices still filled the house. The bedroom door was cracked open and I tip-toed my way to it. Seeing that the man wasn’t alone in the house, a woman stood in the living room with bags around her.“I think you’re getting yourself into something you don’t want to, Jordan.” He just chuckled and smiled down at her.“Sarah, I’ve made this decision on my own. If you don’t want to help me, than you don’t have to.” She stared at him for a moment and then sighed.“Who wouldn’t help a guy like you?” She punched his arm jokingly and he laughed at her.“So you’ll look at her then?” She nodded and looked toward my room. I opened the door, signaling for her to come in. “This is my sister,” he said w
The Rain - Chapter OneThe rain was hard as it hit my body. I closed my eyes so they wouldn’t sting as much. If someone saw me, they wouldn’t be able to distinguish the tears from the rain. The only reason I knew, was because the tears were warm as they ran down my cheek. They mixed with the rain and traveled down onto my knees. I was cold, wet, and hungry.I stared up at the sky and watched the water droplets fall on my face. They were beautiful; almost like an unseen beauty. But they brought me so much pain. Maybe because they made me realize how alone I really was as I sat here on the cold cement. My jacket couldn’t keep out the coldness even though I held it tightly around myself.People passed me by as if I was nothing. I must have looked like a drowned rat. I was dirty and homeless, who would want to look? I just wanted to sit here and die. Maybe the walls would open up and swallow me whole. That’s what I was hoping anyway. But I was asking for something that would never happen.
For Our FutureI can’t help but miss your touch,When I read your words,I only want you here with me,I can’t help but cry when the nights grow long,It’s hard to sleep without your warmth,I only want you here with me,I can’t help but wonder how you’re doing,Are you alright? Are you doing well?Are you happy?Are we making the right choice in this life,I miss you so much it hurts,But I know that there is no other way,If we want to move toward a better future,A future filled with happiness,A future with your smiling face,Than we have to make these sacrifices,My tears may fall down my cheeks,But I know someday theThan we have to make these sacrifices,My tears may fall down my cheeks,But I know someday they’ll stop,I know that when morning comes,I’ll be able to embrace you again,And hear your voice call out my name,So I’ll wait until the day comes,When we can be in the future we dream of,When our hardships will finally come to an end,
Feeling AloneHere I sit alone in our room,Your sent still lingers in the air,I can feel your touch against my skin,Just moments ago we embraced,But now you’re gone,Our worlds have become so different,We’ve lost the time we had together,But we must push forward,I miss you as the night grows colder,The covers don’t keep me warm like you do,I don’t want to sleep without you,It’s just not the same,I stare at the ceiling,Remembering the times you held me,And made the cold night go away,It feels like a fairy tale,I know I shouldn’t be crying,We’re doing what we have to,But the pain of not seeing you hurts,I feel so alone,Here I sit alone in our room,Your sent still lingers in the air,I can feel your touch against my skin,Just moments ago we embraced.